You know what?

I really just wanted to get this out, I mean seeing you today made me realize, I’m not over you, I would never go back, but just thinking about everything we’ve done together, everything we’ve been through, we’ve been through hell & back together, we’ve rode the dark horse together, we’ve rode the white horse too, you made me smile, you made me cry, why am I just now thinking about this? Why do I cry over you STILL, why am I so hurt by this still, why can’t this be easy…

You know,

Sometimes I feel like this is fake, I feel like I’m giving myself up to something small, like I’m doing the wrong thing, like I’m not good enough, like I’m a bad person, like I don’t mean shit to anything, why the fuck do I give out so much? When all people do is fucking take from me? I guess that means something. I’m fucking pathetic.